THE New Year’s Read: The Desire Map (Danielle LaPorte)

Do you get vertigo when you look at the array of e-courses, workbooks, and other products designed for people like US (artistic, wandering, ever-dreaming, renaissance souls) each new year?

It’s like a buffet of creative bursts and self-improvement journeys. Who do you want to be? What do you want to change? What is your wildest dream? My mouth waters at the questions, the colors, the beauty of products created by coaches and bloggers and leaders I love.

How do you choose? There’s cotton candy for your soul, so much sweeter and more colorful than chicken soup. There’s meat & potatoes for your soul, ice cream for your soul, and probably cheesecake, too. (Have you noticed that I adore food?)

I tend to go on trusted recommendations.

This year, I’m exuberantly recommending Danielle LaPorte’s The Desire Map.

My food analogy: The Desire Map is dark chocolate for the soul. And oh, my soul wants nothing more. It’s rich, it’s the perfect combination of bitter and sweet. It’s delicious. You want to savor it in tiny bites, but it sits there staring at you and you pick it up again and again because it is just that wonderful.

I’ve worked through (or half-finished) several products geared toward designing a healthy, creative, and prosperous 2013 … but I’m only writing a single book/product review, because this one blows the rest out of the water.

The Desire Map is changing my life. It’s laying a strong and steady foundation for the creation of miracles. 

By moving through Danielle’s process of identifying your “core desired feelings,” you will find that you’re actually creating the most basic and necessary piece of your mansion of new year’s intentions, or goals, or dreams–call them what you will; The Desire Map is the creation of the blueprint. I’m learning that I need to understand how I want to feel at the manifestation of a dream before I can even begin to decide what to dream. 

I’m coming to understand my rut in school this past fall, and why I stopped having that feeling of tingling excitement about my blog and the little business I’ve created around it. I forgot why I had begun loving those things in the first place–because of the feelings they generated in me. 

Let me quote Danielle, briefly. (This comes from page 30 of The Desire Map.)

“When we make feeling good a priority, everything changes–our individual lives change, and social systems change. How we make and spend money changes. How we teach and learn changes. How we love changes … Heading toward your core desired feelings will revolutionize your life.”

Other stuff I love about The Desire Map?

The audio meditations and poems belong permanently in every iPod, everywhere, in their own playlists. The world would be a better place if everyone listened to this stuff every day.

The graphic-creating apps are fun to play with, even for a graphics-phobic writer like me.

And I love the electronic workbook being there, cause then I can do my desire mapping over & over again, whenever I feel it’s necessary.

Yeah, and you get a hard copy too. How I love print books.

So … let me tell you my five core desired feelings. I went through a few hours of looking things up in dictionaries and thesauri (isn’t that a funny plural?), as Danielle encourages you to do in the workbook-half of the book. So if you’re a word-lover, you will love the desire mapping process.

My Core Desired Feelings:

1. Ardent. I fell in love with this word after sifting through definitions and synonyms for “enthusiastic,” “excited,” “on fire,” “inspired,” and “passionate.” None of those words quite fit the kind of calm-yet-impassioned fervor I want to feel whenever I’m writing, studying, teaching, playing music, or creating.

(Ardent: “Having, or expressive of, intense emotion; fervent, fierce, burning, fiery, vehement, enthusiastic.” Oh, god, yes.)

2. Courageous. “Confident” showed up over and over in my lists, but “confident” felt too general. With Danielle as a poetic, no-nonsense guide to truth, I dug into words until I decided I liked courageous the best.

(Courageous: “Having the quality of mind or spirit that enables one to face difficulty, danger, or pain with firmness and without fear.” Let me repeat that last bit–with firmness and without fear. YES, yes, yes.)

3. Elegant. I found my way to this word by digging deeper into what I really want when I say I want to feel “prosperous,” “abundant,” or “luxurious,” as well as “graceful” or “beautiful.”

(Elegant: “Tastefully fine or luxurious; gracefully refined and dignified.” Yes, please.)

4. Tranquil. I liked this word so much better than “calm,” because I don’t necessarily want to be super calm and mellow all the time. But the definition of “tranquil” speaks to a deeper calm, one I can carry with me always, even if I’m not totally relaxed in every moment.

(Tranquil: “Having a command of emotions, often due to strong faith, that keeps one unagitated, even in the face of extreme strife or excitement.” Good, because I like extreme excitement now and again.)

5. Divine. I had so many words that I narrowed into this one: I wanted to feel spiritual, sacred, connected to the source, part of the dance, ecstatic, one with divinity … Divine.

(Divine: “Of, pertaining to, or proceeding from a God or Goddess; addressed to or appropriated from or devoted to divinity; godlike; befitting a deity; OR [more colloquially] extremely good, lovely.” I really want the first piece of this definition, but I’ll take extremely good & lovely with the rest).

So … seriously, creative soul: Go get your own Desire Map & use it to plan a most divine 2013.

Oh, and happy new year. See? The world didn’t end. It’s just changing. Changing so much, for the better, brighter, and more beautiful.

Summer Reads: Salvage the Bones

Salvage the Bones by Jesmyn Ward

Every lover of books will know this feeling well: you read a novel that you wish wouldn’t end, yet it captivates you too much to slow your pace. The book ends, and no other book looks good enough for weeks.

Salvage the Bones is one such novel. It officially ruined me for other novels for about half of the summer–it’s taken me over a month to finally give another work of fiction a reasonable chance.

If you only pick up one more novel this summer, pick up Jesmyn Ward’s Salvage the Bones.

This novel, slow and dreamy in tone yet quick-moving in plot, takes readers into the life and world of Esch, a teenage girl who lives with her father and brothers in Bois Sauvage, Mississippi. In Ward’s pitch-perfect prose (always direct, often poetic), we follow Esch as she watches the lives of her brothers and their friends from the sidelines in the searing heat of late summer.

A storm is brewing off the Gulf Coast, a storm we know well from history; a hurricane of immense proportions, whose forces will both tear apart and sew together the tenacious bonds between Esch and the men and boys among whom she lives.

As the storm moves ever-closer to land, Ward enfolds her readers in the hot Mississippi landscape as well as the dramas that crackle between and among the members of this poverty-stricken family. The heat is palpable, and the tensions among characters create constant friction within the pages of this book. With each chapter, we’re drawn further into lives whose apparent simplicity belies the complex web of human dramas that draw the characters together and divide them apart. The tension inherent in the stories wrought among these humans mirrors the tension of the gathering hurricane, holding the reader captive until the last drop of rain has fallen.

Salvage the Bones took me into a world whose people and conventions seemed alien to me at first, but quickly grew familiar. I didn’t want this book to end, and you won’t either.  Beautifully written and fiercely rendered, this novel is a testament to rural life in the south, to the ties that bind family and friends, and ultimately to families like Esch’s, who lived through Hurricane Katrina, watching the flood wash over all that they knew.

Plot and tension drive this story ferociously forward to its inevitable ending. Ward throws light across the scenes of summer, dignifying the characters who populate these pages, illuminating just a few of the singular stories of survival that grew out of Katrina’s destruction.

I believe in the power of print

When I saw an e-reader for the first time, my paranoid reaction was primarily fueled by 1960′s science fiction.

Have you ever seen the episode of The Twilight Zone where a librarian in a future society is declared obsolete and sentenced to death?

Being a grade-school girl spent an inordinate amount of time in libraries, I was scared out of my mind by that episode. I had nightmares, in fact.

How, I wondered, could books, of all things, be declared obsolete?

The Christmas that my dad gave my mom an Amazon Kindle as a gift, I believed I had finally seen how books could slowly be eased out of our society. Like those poor Mafiosos who join the Witness Protection Program, books would disappear quietly, and nobody would notice they were gone until it was too late.

I didn’t want to touch the Kindle and I didn’t want to understand it. (I’m aware that this makes me sound neurotic–a paranoid woman with a fear of technology. And yes, when I first saw that e-reader, that’s possibly just what I was).

Flash forward to Christmas of 2011, when I bashfully told my father that what I really wanted for Christmas was my own e-reader.

What can I say? I’m the sort of traveler who brings a multitude of books on any plane, train, or automobile trip. I need my pop/vacation fiction; I need my serious, highbrow fiction; I need something spiritual; I need something educational. The e-reader lured me with its light, slim build and its capacity to house an entire library.

So yes, I do now own a Kindle, for better or for worse. It’s mostly for the better, except for the fact that it’s much too easy for me to develop a sudden certainty that I need a particular book, and I don’t want to wait for it. And now, there’s the thrill of instant gratification: tap, tap, tap on my little reading device and boom! I own another book.

The advent of the e-reader has, indeed, changed the book market indelibly–some say it’s for the better, and others insist it’s for the worst. It’s easier than ever to self-publish any book you darn well please; at the same time, I’m watching beloved bookstores crumble and close, one by precious one.

Despite my new appreciation of the benefits of e-readers, I still believe firmly in print media: in its power, its beauty and–yes–its necessity.

And of course, there is the feel of a real book in your hands. Any book lover knows this feeling well. The pulpy pages beneath your fingers; the satisfying creases in the well-worn spine of a much-loved book. And yes, there’s the smell of books, too. Some say it’s musty; some find it off-putting. Personally, I love the smell of the inside of a book. The older, the mustier, the better.

Personally, I’m fairly certain that there will always be print books. I know that as long as there are, I will buy them, and I will check them out from libraries, too.

Digital publishing vs. traditional publishing: it’s a hot topic on writing blogs and all over the news.

What can I add to the melee of voices?

I’ll keep it simple: I love my e-reader. Nevertheless, once I have my novel published at last, I want it to exist, physically, 100, 200, even 300 years from now. If the screens of e-readers everywhere are somehow crashed and smashed in some great and horrible disaster, I want my book to exist, still, somewhere–for real, on pulpy pages that smell musty when you crack open the much-worn spine.

Announcement time:

The second session of Invincible Summer starts on July 20th, and it will be the last time I’m offering this life-changing creative writing e-course this year. 

I’d suggest joining the tribe sooner rather than later, as early-bird prices are only available through June 30th–after that, the cost will rise by $20. Come write with us.

Summer Reads: The Book Thief

I’ve decided to start reviewing books here–at least for as long as it’s summer and I have enough time to read whatever I darn well please. If you find yourself wondering what to read next, give Markus Zusak’s The Book Thief a spin. 

The Book ThiefI bought my copy of The Book Thief at my favorite bookstore in the country–Village Books (Fairhaven, WA–an unfortunate location for me; I’m lucky if I make it there more than once in a year).

At once poetic and straightforward, hilarious and tragic, Markus Zusak’s The Book Thief  (despite the desperate circumstances of its setting) is bound to bring about a strange and unexpected nostalgia for childhood; for those innocent years when you believed nothing truly horrible could ever happen to you, or your friends, or loved ones. This nostalgia does not lose its value even as the innocence of the book’s young characters begins to slowly unpeel.

The Book Thief tells the story of  Liesel Meminger who, at the story’s outset, is illiterate. Nevertheless, an inexplicable compulsion leads Liesel to steal a book left lying in the snow beside her younger brother’s fresh grave. As it happens, the book is entitled The Gravedigger’s Handbook, and from it, Liesel will learn to read.

Zusak sets The Book Thief in Nazi Germany, with World War II already underway. Although the war is ultimately central to the book’s plot, the opening chapters reveal the deceptive naivete with which Liesel (and her soon-to-be best friend Rudy Steiner) views the world.

Maybe, like me, you’ve read a whole lot of WWII books–so many that you fear the authors have taken the emotion, rawness, and the horrible lessons of that war and wrung them out until there’s nothing new left to be written; until we bookworms have stopped feeling any shock or surprise at anything we read about that particular war and time period. That sort of numbness is a travesty, as books about historical tragedies of immense proportions should never stop shocking us–lest we forget the lessons of history.

Reading The Book Thief proves that there are still authors with something new to say about WWII. Or there’s at least one, anyway, and his name is Martin Zusak.

There is very, very little in this book that could be considered boring, expected, or cliche.

The Book Thief is narrated by the Angel of Death. A gutsy move on Zusak’s part, and it’s a move that works. Moreover, the Angel of Death himself will also surprise you–because he is kind, because he gathers souls with such gentle compassion, and because he is such a precise and gifted narrator.

The Angel was at Liesel’s brother’s graveside, of course, so he witnesses Liesel’s first theft and is instantly intrigued by this girl–so intrigued that he breaks his angel-rules and takes a special interest in one single, living girl.

Shortly after her brother is buried, Liesel reaches her destination: the home of Hans and Rosa Hubermann, who have taken her in as a foster child, presumably because they receive money from the state for doing so. Hans and Rosa defy all cliched expectations.

Zusak’s singular style includes the peppering of each chapter with pronouncements, lists, and explanations that shout at the reader in bold-face print, such as this one:

“Some Facts About Rosa Hubermann:

She was five feet, one inch tall and wore her browny gray strands of elastic hair in a bun … Her cooking was atrocious … She possessed the unique ability to aggravate anyone she ever met. But she did love Liesel Meminger. Her way of showing it just happened to be strange. It involve bashing her with wooden spoon and words at various intervals.”

A character like Rosa Hubermann (who eventually asks Liesel to call her “Mama” from now on) is just one example of the strange, contradictory, and lovable humans who populate the pages of The Book Thief. Just as it is with those people we live with each day in our own lives, her contradictions don’t always make sense, and they are never fully explained: yet Rosa is as believable as any character I’ve met in any great novel, and her love for Liesel Meminger, strange as it may seem, is somehow perfectly understandable in this reader’s eyes.

Among the parade of unforgettable characters who fill these pages, you will meet Hans Hubermann (“Papa”), who plays an accordion in the street, teaches Liesel to read, and works for no pay even when starving; you’ll meet Rudy Steiner, who is repeatedly described as a boy with “hair like a candle flame”–Rudy Steiner, who assists Liesel on her book-stealing errands; Rudy Steiner, who loves Liesel hopelessly; Rudy, who routinely defies the leaders of his Hitler Youth division.

You’ll meet Max Vandenburg, the Jew who has nightmares in tandem with Liesel, and who writes and illustrates beautiful books upon the pages of Mein Kampf, which he has carefully covered in white paint.

And you’ll follow the Angel of Death from place to place as he describes the unspeakable increase in his workload as the war progresses. Never have I “met” an angel so very human as the one who narrates this tale:

“There were broken bodies and dead, sweet hearts … Some of them I caught when they were only halfway down. Saved you, I’d think, holding their souls in midair … All of them were light, like the cases of empty walnuts. Smoky sky in those places. The sky like a stove, but still so cold.

I shiver when I remember–as I try to de-realize it. I blow warm air into my hands, to heat them up. But it’s hard to keep them warm when the souls still shiver. God. I always say that name when I think of it.” 

It sounds like a sad book, and it is, but it will also defy your expectations by bringing you moments of laughter. You’ll find that you love the foster mother who swears incessantly at Hans and at Liesel; you’ll find, against all odds, that you love and pity the Angel of Death.

You’ll find yourself crossing your fingers and rooting silently for Liesel each time she slips, shoeless, through a library window to steal another book (one which has likely been banned). You’ll wish, along with Rudy Steiner, that Liesel will grant him that single kiss he so often asks for.

Nazi Germany provides the backdrop of this story–a story which wouldn’t be what it is without this backdrop. Yet somehow, the conflicts played out between, among, and within the unforgettable characters who populate these pages will enthrall you and absorb you even more than the war. In fact, for entire chapters, you may even forget that you’re reading a story set in a city in a country destined to lose the war it perpetuates. You may even forget that the characters you’ve come to love are, each and every day, in grave danger.

This is the forgetting of childhood and adolescence; the forgetting you’ll witness in Liesel, Rudy, and also the adults who live in these pages.

These are characters who will live in your memory as if you knew them in “real life.”

When you travel with the Angel of Death, you are destined to meet tragedy. But in this case, the journey is well worth your while.

there is always a metamorphosis

 

photo by Pascal Maramis via Flickr Creative Commons

“When you get down to the True Self and speak from that, there is always a metamorphosis in your writing, a transfiguration.” -Brenda Ueland, If You Want to Write

Yesterday I decided to re-read If You Want to Write. 

There are some books on art and writing that are worth reading over and over–over the entire course of a truly creative life.

I was young when I first picked up Ueland’s book. I don’t know exactly how young I was, because I was a precocious reader. I was young enough that I didn’t grasp all of the material, but old enough to have been lit up by what I did grasp.

The second time I read the book, I was in college, and I then saw so many more layers of meaning that mattered, and it changed me all over again.

Now, reading If You Want to Write for the third time, my experience is, once more, different. I see even more directions in which I could grow as a writer, and I’m deeply aware of Euland’s clear focus on authenticity–long before authenticity was a trend or buzzword. (It was published in 1938).

Great work is like that. You never tire of it, because you notice something new each and every time: the unspeakable beauty of a brush-stroke, of a haiku, of a chord change in a favorite old song.

It’s like that because the artist who made it was speaking from what Euland calls the “True Self” in the above quote. (I like to call it the “center of self,” or-obviously-”your own invincible summer.”)

I am confident that you will create works of such enduring magnitude.

Caveat: If you pick up this book, be warned that it is very dated in some ways. The dated pieces are few and far between, and can easily be taken with a grain of salt. The artistic truths remain intact.